Inside me, Inside we.

I tried to smile, like nothing's wrong.
Talk like everything's perfect,
Act like it's all a dream,
And pretend nothing's hurting me.

But in a space filled with faces,
My eyes have always searched for you.
And I will always look back on that dangerous night,
When I gave all myself to you.
Gazing into your azure shaded iris.
Every day I hope those moments lasted longer.
I wonder if I should cherish what we had,
Or mourn about the abandoned morning.
I can't tell if it's killing me or making me stronger.

You always had a secret garden,
The walls were very high...
It's that feeling in my stomach,
When I see that we're breaking,
Witnessing butterflies die.

That je ne sais quoi,
Is not enough to keep us together,
Yet ceases to stop the pain. 
Spiteful words may hurt my feelings,
But silence breaks my heart veins.The more I reflect, the less I see.
The only option- let it be,
Give it time.
You'll go your way, I'll find mine. 

I know it's over,
When I'm more in love with the memories
than who you are standing in front of me.
But I just want to tell you,
It takes everything in me not to ask how you are,
And I wish I could run to you,
You should know that.
Every time I don't, I almost do. I almost do.

It would be perfect, if you were the real you,
And I had more self belief.
But I failed to bring out the best in you,
And you began to make me doubt me.
Now I know, Now I finally see.
Life isn't perfect, not even you
and certainly not we. 

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