You are enough

Perhaps in great darkness,

There truly is a light... 

For it's been almost a year or two 

Since i've felt the need to write. 

Though my writing feels quite rusty, 

And awkward to continue,

I want to capture what I'm going through. 

This is stress that's quite brand new. 

I asked for a new challenge, 

And challenge I was granted.

Now that I've got what I wished, 

I wonder if that's what I wanted. 

Do you know that feeling,

Where you're constantly subpar- 

Even if you've tried everything

You seem to still fall far.

It's not like I'm not trying,

It's not like anyone's to blame,

But I'm always in a rush, 

For people to know my name. 

I wish I was way smarter, 

I wish I was way quicker, 

I wish I was way louder, 

I wish I was less bitter. 

They say you are enough,

But it doesn't seem the case,

Even when people assure me,

I can't help thinking it's fake...