Collection of honesty

The strong, Have the weakest ability of being nonjudgmental. Because they don't agree with it, They believe that those who do it are mental. First, they take a person's personality and link these traits with their background. They see their lives as 'how it's supposed to be' Define it, apply it to the rest like it's a mutual campground. But the strong, These people are tired. They lose hope in humanity, Admire themselves quietly and try to inspire. But oh the pressure that comes with the strong. Internal battles, moral conflicts and judgments. I've tried too but it's not my substance. Take strict moral standards and ethics to the court. In life we need support not opinions and snorts. I don't need a friend to be mad at my actions, I need someone who understands, someone who listens. And I hate it, when people try to define my existence, What I am, what I'm not at least I'm consistent.

The way you wake up next to me, The sun rays painted on your cheeks. Or if you've already woken up, and you're just watching me sleep. It's such a blessing to see you when I take my first peek Into another day as I feel your gentle kisses Wrapped into your arms, I turn weak. Yet so energized, when you smile at me I can almost memorize how mesmerized I am- each and every time. You're my favorite sight to a sun rise. Your every touch is a surprise. They say you'll find the joy of life, and I've found it in your eyes.

Maybe you think, That good morning is an unnecessary thing. But it is the very reminder, That you're my first thought in the morning. It is the words of commitment confirming, That I'll miss you regardless where I am, Each day, till every next dawning. 

You're beautiful baby, Especially to me. You're everything I hoped for, everything I need. Now everything's not about me, not about you but about we. Didn't expect our closeness to come at this speed. You superseded to my heart and planted a seed. I didn't know how you got in I was half asleep, So defeated by love, I didn't care too much to believe.  What I like about you is that you don't see, The goodness I see in you it's what attracts you to me. How around you I can be playful I can run free. In your arms, it's home there's no where else I'd rather be. How you wrap me around your body tight and protectively. I love how you love me so entirely willingly, unconditionally. How I can stare into your eyes and stare at them endlessly. How you play it coy with my compliments and take them uneasily. How we talk and open up about things so ceaselessly. How you get my weirdness how you accept it so impressively. How you don't ...

We are humans. Tied down by what other think. Accountable for how others feel. And this heavy weight walks with us, Like a 5 pound hooked on your heel. There's nothing to really be fixed, Nothing really major you just need time- to heal. But we are never alone and there are others, Who you need to be accountable for how they feel, And you don't want to be tied down by what they think. So you pretend Like it's fine during a meal- no big deal. You start panicking over illusionary things, Fears that aren't real. 

Boy, you're born to drama. Can't you be more calm within, Read some Dalai Lama. Discussing others problems, Judging so thoughtlessly, So 'sillyly', forgive my grammar. Thinking you have all the answers, Thinking that you're awesome. 'I know the latest gossips. You'd never guess what happened.' What for? You may be the first to be informed, Tomorrow it'll go viral, Like newspaper on everyone's front door. You think you know something, But someone else knows even more. Swaying allegiance like a man with no notion, No nobility and humility. No empathy. Go on... your call. Create rainstorms, let it fall. Spread it to the basic bitches. It's a small society after all. And when the brawl ends, Your words may be forgiven but never forgotten. It's not respected, When you're igniting fires, While people are busy putting them out, Winning battles you ain't know nothing about. And no one's ever been poor by g...

I'm just another victim, Lord knows I've been no saint. Spending money without restraint, Clothes, make up- just face paint. And damn these beautiful girls, Too many- Covered in diamonds and pearls. The world is so realistic, Encouraging unrealistic perfection, Forgetting the beauty in simplistic. But the pretty gets it easy, With just a little added cheese in your words, They get deeply hazy in the head and you'll get what you want freely, Unlike the ugly, but While we all stress to be well dressed If the world was blind, How many would you impress?

I am a girl built with infinite insecurities, very aware of my strength and weaknesses, but not know how to play them yet. I'll succeed with flying colors or end in mass destruction Which one will it be, I do not dare place bet. For the future seemed so bright from a far distance. Yet up close so dim... so hopeless and fearful. To an extent which I could not bear with my weak and frail shoulders. A burden of hope I could not wear, from all those who surround me and their faith keeps me awake till dawn. And I start praying to all the Gods that I do not disappoint them. As they have never disappointed me. It's a feeling of desperation, thinking I'm not good enough for this society. Suppose if I drop a class, life would be an easier glass to drink from. Ask me of a love song and I'll scribble up in three. But ask me of number I could never answer, See we all have our own specialties so they tell me. How can I survive if that's what survival be. ...

You have style, You're a beautiful shell. You're a wreckless mess. And I guess in some ways you were my test. I was awful lonely and you're so pretty to look at. Matter fact I forget what's best for me when you're sitting on my bed. Seducing me with your eyes and next second- I'm yours but I'm just a prize, You said baby I might, want to have something real special with you. I believed you like monkey see, monkey do. Fool.

I wanna cook breakfast with you. I wanna do none of the things on the list of to dos. With you, I wanna go on a holiday. Paris, Hong Kong, Venice I don’t care,  Somewhere far away. Or a resort under an orange sky, While we count birds that fly by, There’ll be too many, but we can try. I wanna feel good with you. View the world through Greece, Feel peace. Swim into the navy blue ocean, Or float on the Dead Sea- you and me. Letting waves lead our motion. Look up to the stars, Or the bars at a long distance. The world is ours. Our existence will be consistent with this traveling. We’ll leave our footprints in the sand, Take my hand, No plans.

Baby I'm imperfect. Below this make up, are shades of blemishes before the surface. So please don’t tell me I’m beautiful. At least not yet. You haven’t met me. If I cry, and mascara dries under my eyes, If my concealer melts under the sun, If one day I wake up, think no makeup- I’m done. And you see through the scars on my face. Embrace my soul with true love and grace. If you can look through it all, See into what I really am, And if you tell me I’m beautiful even then, Then baby I’ll believe you. I’ll believe I’m beautiful.

His soul shines so brightly, His heart more precious than pure gold. T'was today that I realize, it was a loss to let him go. While I was holding some other man's hand, He watched with a torn heart but by my side he'd stand,  Ready to catch my fall cause he knew the boy was bad. Said he couldn't stand to see me sad when he found out it was over. I thought he'd be happy but he couldn't find satisfaction nor closure. He wish he could do more but he no longer desired to be the knight in my wars. "This train has left a little, I hope you understand. It wasn't the easiest thing, watching you leave with another man." We're still friends, aren't we? What more could I ask for. We can't change the past, regardless how much we deplore.  He clamped my hands between his palms and assured "I could've given you everything." But what's the point bringing up the past of something that turned into nothing. ...

I tried to smile, like nothing's wrong. Talk like everything's perfect, Act like it's all a dream, And pretend nothing's hurting me. But in a space filled with faces, My eyes have always searched for you. And I will always look back on that dangerous night, When I gave all myself to you. Gazing into your azure shaded iris. Every day I hope those moments lasted longer. I wonder if I should cherish what we had, Or mourn about the abandoned morning. I can't tell if it's killing me or making me stronger. You always had a secret garden, The walls were very high... It's that feeling in my stomach, When I see that we're breaking, Witnessing butterflies die. That je ne sais quoi, Is not enough to keep us together, Yet ceases to stop the pain.  Spiteful words may hurt my feelings, But silence breaks my heart veins.The more I reflect, the less I see. The only option- let it be, Give it time. You'll go your way, I'll find mine.  ...

Hush baby girl. I know it still hurts. Shhhh... Pull it together. It's for your growth, my glory. You can never whether the weather. I'm not giving you what you want now, The reason, I have a plan. Something so much more divine, Believe in me now like you believed in me then. Pieces of the puzzle will fall in place I promise. I've done it before and I'll do it again, Regardless the path,  Nothing works without a journey before the end. Now my beautiful daughter, Wipe off those tears, shake off that negativity, Make use of the light I shed on you, Life itself is a festivity.

Pacing back and forth Lane of familiarity. Located amongst a foreign surrounding, Where's clarity?  Where am I?  What died? I can't see what they sell but I see what they buy. The scenery shifts as I shut my right eye. This is not what I want, This wasn't my vision. How'd this happen? How'd we come to this decision? What went wrong? Did I get swayed by constant derision? Now how will they learn my song? I can't remember if I even ever fought. Solo flights of thought.

Lately, I've been greatly blessed with kindness in those who surround me. They sooth me when I'm angered speaking words of wisdom 'let it be.' Through them I rediscovered the power of vulnerbility, I was so close to shutting the walls of my heart hoping to regain stability. Trapped in the concept of relationships, slave to devotee. I won't change I promise, all I'll do is learn. Learn when you play with fire, something's bound to get burn. It gets way out of hand, to the point of no return. But this all fades away in the end, there's no pain time can't mend. When you let someone in, there's no more need to pretend. You can stop being defensive, stop acting content. Through these connections, your soul transcends... If you don't know what I'm saying it's cause you don't comprehend. You're afraid to depend on someone who can possibly hurt you. Because once you're committed, your heart can no longer undo. Once ...

I see you walking around, present with an absent mind with every conversation. Conversing with no intention, so much tension in your eyes. You don't look any wiser that's a fucking ugly smize. Your smile is just a pile of pain painted with disguise. As if anyone's judging, you keep trying so damn hard, Your cheesy lines ain't impressing no one, Those ain't no avant garde. You keep flirting like we all your bitches try to take us to your back yard. Fondling hair, rubbing backs like some big shot in a brothel. Trying to sell your dick insisting it tastes like belgium waffle. Filthy, honey we know inside you're ugly and empty. Yet it's always early for pity when you play games so dirty Making girls fall for you like a slut, plenty. They fall, they tell then you're like what the fuck? I'm not ready for a relo honey I was just mucking about. Please don't make a big deal no point you cry and pout. In a month it was Anna, then Louise, M...

Don't make me do everything, as if you're fucking roman king. You can suck your own dick- jack, I don't owe you anything. Sometimes you make me wonder why the fuck you're so thick. No one told you to be nice, ain't mean you gotta be a prick. And it's true we mimic you behind you, all the gay shit that you do. You ain't looking surprised now that I told you guess your momma did too. I'm not apologizing rhyme for all the shit you put me through. Feel free, hire a lawyer, sue me if you got to. You said you loved me, I believed it for a second but we both know it ain't true. I'm done with all the boohoos, done with this catastrophe. You served me poisoned honey thank fuck I have the remedy. Laugh at me all you want, we'll see who gets faster to the top. Maybe you have the edge now but it bout to be a scary drop. When you be driving Honda, bitch I be rolling Maserati. You're cycling shit I'm parking my Annaliese to the boat q...

How bout a round of applause and a standing ovation. Boy you've really been amazing. The choice of words and tactics you were using deserves solid praising. Fooled me. In my weakest moments I failed to see, all your plan As and plan Bs.  Now you want a half assed relationship, nah sorry honey. I don't have time to meddle in child's play. Such a typical teen romance story, hot headed and risque. You say you've more experience with love but of what quality are they? One night stands, sex buddies. What's it adequate to? You told me you changed, I stayed the same, naive- forgetting old habits die hard it's true.  I'm about done with your yabadeesyabadoos. I'll only have you if you're sweeter than my solitude. So if this is your best then you're best really won't do. *Songspiration: Inspired by Rihanna's - Take a bow 

Here we go again- Another heartbreak. How much longer can I fake that I'm okay, that I have hope in something that just plays my emotions and sways my mood to painful extremities. Stop giving me cupid's potion it's poison. Pointless. I'm all about holding faith, But enough is enough I'm so done with it. 'Babe you're so pretty.' But pretty don't do shit. They say the world's real small, the world's the way you perceive it, So I decided to perceive my world with you. But they never told me what perceptions do. Perception makes you a fool, you see things in pink when they're in reality blue. You held me with affection and sincerity, Then you left and let things be, where's the clarity. Finally I find a keeper but he doesn't keep me.