Collection of honesty

心病, 自我診斷. 當別人鄰近自己厚愛的人, 但又站在一個阻沒有理由約束的角度 裹足不前 理屈詞窮. 會開始質問自己的自私莫名 為什麼心 如此缺乏安全感 放滿滿的情感 在素來單純的友誼. 也是自己天真 逾分置信世界遼闊 其實渺小 自己更微不足道. 所以要告訴 不斷成長的自己 其實做好自己就好. 別的事, 隨他去吧... 該發生事會層見疊出 該是你的會留下. 我們放手, 偏疼自己多一點吧.

Some envy and say: 'You have alot.' But someone will always have more. Some think I have too little, that my life's a bore but the question is, what's the comparison for? Some are happy with the minimal while the others ignore all the things they have and continue to explore and desire what others possess and truly forget- everything they have inside that door. Gratitude is an attitude and is the simple remedy for many internal wars, knowing what's yours is enough. There's too many temptations in life to fall for. Be grateful, for the love that surround you, for the sky that's consistently blue, for the majestic scenery you've had the working lenses and blessing to view, for all the tough times you've managed to pull through, for all the knowledge and wisdom you've accrued, for sadness and sorrows you've grown tough to bid adieu, for your mother that told you whatever you want in life you can do, can do. Blessed are the people who see b...

Hey, where'd you come from? Who sent you here to save me? I knew you all along but how did you find me? I was about to be the casualty of love. Love, Something I thought unworthy of thought. Something I can never get a hold of. Then like Prince Charming you came, On your white horse without the same lame ways like the rest that try to aflame me with those games. You ride so subtle I didn't anticipate you stepping into my world so quiet, so present. The chivalry, like a real gent. You're my present, presented so pleasantly meant to be for me. You have my friends participating and facilitating our story till they imitate how intimate we are. How close we are. How completely you accept me it's almost bizzare. All my insecurities so insignificant with you, All these other men, man you outdo them and so I thank you. For being true, appearing out of the blue my Prince. Who knew. That one day you'd be my one over two.

Can I love you? Let me, cause I already do. Just the way you look at me, The way you love my family. How you play it coy, How much joy being with you brings to my life. How bad it hurts to say every goodbye. It never gets easier, Every time we part I get crazier at the idea of us. But is it useless?

Here we go again- Another heartbreak. How much longer can I fake that I'm okay, that I have hope in something that just plays my emotions and sways my mood to painful extremities. Stop giving me cupid's potion it's poison. Pointless. I'm all about holding faith, But enough is enough I'm so done with it. 'Babe you're so pretty.' But pretty don't do shit. They say the world's real small, the world's the way you perceive it, So I decided to perceive my world with you. But they never told me what perceptions do. Perception makes you a fool, you see things in pink when they're in reality blue. You held me with affection and sincerity, Then you left and let things be, where's the clarity. Finally I find a keeper but he doesn't keep me.

There's so much to share, too little time. All at once takes away all the beauty, Maybe this is how it's meant to be. He'll know and feel love just not through me. I wish, If I could I'd show him so patiently. I'll wrap his arms to my waist to break the uncertainty. Damn all these blurred lines, I'd rather he be mine. But that's all fantasy, a silent reverie of the mind.  It's arduous not to touch him, not to give into one embrace.  He never said those important words, But it doesn't matter it's always been present in his presence, or absence nonetheless. There has never been such consistency, never been so admired. Treats and feeds me like a real lady or a queen. And when I'm not beautiful, he sees a higher beauty. Something natural, something even I don't see. Like a king with wings that protect me, His bona fide tenderness play songs strumming on heartstrings. Yet there's no way he can hold me, Too soon I'll ...

My wrists feel a little naked, light as a feather, clear as a vein, The very person that locked me up released me of my chains. He removed the mask over my face, I can breathe and see again. My heart stopped bleeding from gentle stitches, there's no more pain. I can think clearly and make sense, the mind's no longer insane. There's no more sadness no more left to complain. There's no more hurt I tried so hard to contain. There's no more 'It's all okay' tough girl to maintain. There's no more lying to myself 'on behalf of him' to explain, No more 'try to look beautiful', it's perfectly good enough to be plain. There was a freedom I refrained too long to regain, Now I'm taking the fast lane to some fabulous freedom, And on the way to recovery I'll sure sing in the rain.

I've never loved a man who stopped loving me back, So forgive me please if I seem too taken aback.  I sense your attempts at hiding true feelings away, But there's so much said from the things you don't say. There's no one to blame when the feelings go wrong, Sometimes fate just won't let two belong. Now I'm so sick of songs, so tired of tears, Done with wishing your heart was still here. It was a beautiful fairtytale but too short, too soon. Felt like one second ago I was still over the moon. All of a sudden the stars starting burning and fell to the earth, Will we still fight for what this is worth? * Songspiration : A little activity where the stimulus were lyrics from random song chosen by a friend . ( So sick by Neyo. )

From your eyes I realize, What I offer you is still little to keep you satisfied. Cause we take turns to spin 180 degrees, Let’s not kiss if we’re uncertain please. We're two ordinary but too different people.  Our roads were never parallel. While we scramble out of each other’s lives, We dive deeper into a tangled mess. The mess you leave, some day I break free… Don't travel the road of reminiscence with me, And walk through the valley of our memories. When you’ve found true happiness, the one you adore, The one you’d call, care, cry, stand and speak for, I won’t have to reply the midnight texts anymore When your heart finds a home to lay rest, I'll confess in lakes of loneliness.

Your blue eyes stare at me with nothing less than sincerity, Your sugar coated words got me believing in me. Your kisses so soft and tender, it takes a million to suffice. Your touch lingers around my body, I'd pay any price, To spend time and understand you... Let your guards down and make you a better man, Like the way you effortlessly extract the goodness within me. You remember all the abstracts- shuffle my muffles, And fit them together like a jigsaw puzzle. What started off as a flirting flame had no one to blame. Sparks fly and we've become something real, The attraction we feel, so strong and enchanting... In games there is always a loser but to me you're not a game. What is it you perceive? a sea of ecstasy, a world of fantasy, a sense of majesty? Do you do it to just relax, release, feel relief and set yourself free? When you hold me, are you alive ? Are you feeling me or is it just a touch? Do you care or am I asking too much? Are you clo...

To my one and only, 2013 won't be perfect without your presence. Why do you come back for a day, steal my heart away then leave for months of absence? 4 years since we first met and I know it was fate, But life isn't great enough to create perfect lovers without much waiting. So I'm debating... whether I'm too naive and unrealistic, To wait another 4 years to be with you. I want to love someone else but I don't know how to. That's the easy way out, I could just move on... But what about the promise we had agreed upon? The little moments of me being under your umbrella, In the wrap of your arm, I become Cinderella with a prince. And your soft words prints deep in my heart despite distance keeping us apart. How can I lie to myself when you've always been the one I want to run to. So can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now to clear all the fears and tears I've had When the ...

On that piano with that bass, Something lures my voice. Rolling in the silky shaped bed,  I'll make love to jazz, Scatting and swinging,  Singing slow with passion and sweetness, Hitting the blue notes as I go. Drunk in the sensual sex of each melody. 'At last' on a late afternoon, Listen to the saxophone's seduction, Please fly me to the moon. 

Love is like art, It's not from the bodies, But straight from the heart. To everyone no matter what sort, Without labels without tort.

Ladies we'll all come to a point, When you meet a pauper that lies. Tells you he'll be there for you, But leaves you when you cry. He won't do much for you, But he said that he is trying. You'll give in once or twice, Believing his shit's worth buying. One day you might be hurt, When you come to let it go. But don't be too hard on yourself, There's something you should know. While you're in love with the pauper, There's a prince waiting in the corner. While thinking you'll have to fight battles, He's polishing his armour. Riding on his white horse, He'll swiftly sweep you off your feet. And with him by your side, You'll always feel complete. Fret not, rush not, cry not. For there's always someone out there, He'll finally make you realize, There's no one who can really compare.