Collection of honesty

Can I love you? Let me, cause I already do. Just the way you look at me, The way you love my family. How you play it coy, How much joy being with you brings to my life. How bad it hurts to say every goodbye. It never gets easier, Every time we part I get crazier at the idea of us. But is it useless?

I wanna cook breakfast with you. I wanna do none of the things on the list of to dos. With you, I wanna go on a holiday. Paris, Hong Kong, Venice I don’t care,  Somewhere far away. Or a resort under an orange sky, While we count birds that fly by, There’ll be too many, but we can try. I wanna feel good with you. View the world through Greece, Feel peace. Swim into the navy blue ocean, Or float on the Dead Sea- you and me. Letting waves lead our motion. Look up to the stars, Or the bars at a long distance. The world is ours. Our existence will be consistent with this traveling. We’ll leave our footprints in the sand, Take my hand, No plans.

I tried to smile, like nothing's wrong. Talk like everything's perfect, Act like it's all a dream, And pretend nothing's hurting me. But in a space filled with faces, My eyes have always searched for you. And I will always look back on that dangerous night, When I gave all myself to you. Gazing into your azure shaded iris. Every day I hope those moments lasted longer. I wonder if I should cherish what we had, Or mourn about the abandoned morning. I can't tell if it's killing me or making me stronger. You always had a secret garden, The walls were very high... It's that feeling in my stomach, When I see that we're breaking, Witnessing butterflies die. That je ne sais quoi, Is not enough to keep us together, Yet ceases to stop the pain.  Spiteful words may hurt my feelings, But silence breaks my heart veins.The more I reflect, the less I see. The only option- let it be, Give it time. You'll go your way, I'll find mine.  ...

Hush baby girl. I know it still hurts. Shhhh... Pull it together. It's for your growth, my glory. You can never whether the weather. I'm not giving you what you want now, The reason, I have a plan. Something so much more divine, Believe in me now like you believed in me then. Pieces of the puzzle will fall in place I promise. I've done it before and I'll do it again, Regardless the path,  Nothing works without a journey before the end. Now my beautiful daughter, Wipe off those tears, shake off that negativity, Make use of the light I shed on you, Life itself is a festivity.