My incessant dwells

I’d like to pretend that I know myself,
The idea that I know what I’m doing,
Suits me well.
I’d like to pretend I don’t need others,
The thought that I can be strong on my own,
I’ll stay swell.
I’d like to pretend I can choose what’s best,
The notion that I will do what’s right,
I will excel.
I’d like to pretend that I’m not afraid,
The chimera that things will turn out okay,
My incessant dwells.

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