Collection of honesty

Perhaps in great darkness, There truly is a light...  For it's been almost a year or two  Since i've felt the need to write.  Though my writing feels quite rusty,  And awkward to continue, I want to capture what I'm going through.  This is stress that's quite brand new.  I asked for a new challenge,  And challenge I was granted. Now that I've got what I wished,  I wonder if that's what I wanted.  Do you know that feeling, Where you're constantly subpar-  Even if you've tried everything You seem to still fall far. It's not like I'm not trying, It's not like anyone's to blame, But I'm always in a rush,  For people to know my name.  I wish I was way smarter,  I wish I was way quicker,  I wish I was way louder,  I wish I was less bitter.  They say you are enough, But it doesn't seem the case, Even when people assure me, I can't help thinking it's fake... 

"I disagree with your values" But why did you marry the man? If you knew you wouldn't get along, Why did you marry the man? Why'd you bang down the door And adopt the family name, You were told to think thrice, Before your last names turned the same. Now you complain and disagree When things don't go your way, Now you trash and tantrum, Whose price is it to pay? We told you to, run, run, run. Life is young and so were you Burning brighter than the sun. Now you want to shelter, rest, From the gear that weighs a ton. Everyone hurts pointlessly, To a vow that can't be undone. In a marriage with no winners, That brings happiness to none.

Surround those that carry light, to avoid darkness. They will show the way. One day you become the light, Brightly shine on those around you. You will show them the way. Then, Even when the rays around you fades, You'll never dim away.

心病, 自我診斷. 當別人鄰近自己厚愛的人, 但又站在一個阻沒有理由約束的角度 裹足不前 理屈詞窮. 會開始質問自己的自私莫名 為什麼心 如此缺乏安全感 放滿滿的情感 在素來單純的友誼. 也是自己天真 逾分置信世界遼闊 其實渺小 自己更微不足道. 所以要告訴 不斷成長的自己 其實做好自己就好. 別的事, 隨他去吧... 該發生事會層見疊出 該是你的會留下. 我們放手, 偏疼自己多一點吧.

I spend 70% of my time in my thoughts, 30% in reality. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I applaud gentlemen and everything chivalry. I appreciate handwritten letters. I see beauty in humble things. I view humility as a vital, vital virtue. I perceive charm as a crucial attribute. I aim to live my life gracefully, I consider personal branding. I prefer minimalism. I care greatly for detail. I keep an open mind for others, keep standards myself. I seek self improvement. I find nourishing the soul important. I enjoy raveling in endless pursuit of truth. I love deeper conversations. I regard writing as healing. I sing as if songs were windows to my soul. I know women can do great things. I believe faith can go a long way. I identify with introverts, quiet people have the loudest minds. I trust we all have purpose.

Some envy and say: 'You have alot.' But someone will always have more. Some think I have too little, that my life's a bore but the question is, what's the comparison for? Some are happy with the minimal while the others ignore all the things they have and continue to explore and desire what others possess and truly forget- everything they have inside that door. Gratitude is an attitude and is the simple remedy for many internal wars, knowing what's yours is enough. There's too many temptations in life to fall for. Be grateful, for the love that surround you, for the sky that's consistently blue, for the majestic scenery you've had the working lenses and blessing to view, for all the tough times you've managed to pull through, for all the knowledge and wisdom you've accrued, for sadness and sorrows you've grown tough to bid adieu, for your mother that told you whatever you want in life you can do, can do. Blessed are the people who see b