Collection of honesty

Hush baby girl. I know it still hurts. Shhhh... Pull it together. It's for your growth, my glory. You can never whether the weather. I'm not giving you what you want now, The reason, I have a plan. Something so much more divine, Believe in me now like you believed in me then. Pieces of the puzzle will fall in place I promise. I've done it before and I'll do it again, Regardless the path,  Nothing works without a journey before the end. Now my beautiful daughter, Wipe off those tears, shake off that negativity, Make use of the light I shed on you, Life itself is a festivity.

Pacing back and forth Lane of familiarity. Located amongst a foreign surrounding, Where's clarity?  Where am I?  What died? I can't see what they sell but I see what they buy. The scenery shifts as I shut my right eye. This is not what I want, This wasn't my vision. How'd this happen? How'd we come to this decision? What went wrong? Did I get swayed by constant derision? Now how will they learn my song? I can't remember if I even ever fought. Solo flights of thought.

Lately, I've been greatly blessed with kindness in those who surround me. They sooth me when I'm angered speaking words of wisdom 'let it be.' Through them I rediscovered the power of vulnerbility, I was so close to shutting the walls of my heart hoping to regain stability. Trapped in the concept of relationships, slave to devotee. I won't change I promise, all I'll do is learn. Learn when you play with fire, something's bound to get burn. It gets way out of hand, to the point of no return. But this all fades away in the end, there's no pain time can't mend. When you let someone in, there's no more need to pretend. You can stop being defensive, stop acting content. Through these connections, your soul transcends... If you don't know what I'm saying it's cause you don't comprehend. You're afraid to depend on someone who can possibly hurt you. Because once you're committed, your heart can no longer undo. Once ...

I see you walking around, present with an absent mind with every conversation. Conversing with no intention, so much tension in your eyes. You don't look any wiser that's a fucking ugly smize. Your smile is just a pile of pain painted with disguise. As if anyone's judging, you keep trying so damn hard, Your cheesy lines ain't impressing no one, Those ain't no avant garde. You keep flirting like we all your bitches try to take us to your back yard. Fondling hair, rubbing backs like some big shot in a brothel. Trying to sell your dick insisting it tastes like belgium waffle. Filthy, honey we know inside you're ugly and empty. Yet it's always early for pity when you play games so dirty Making girls fall for you like a slut, plenty. They fall, they tell then you're like what the fuck? I'm not ready for a relo honey I was just mucking about. Please don't make a big deal no point you cry and pout. In a month it was Anna, then Louise, M...

Don't make me do everything, as if you're fucking roman king. You can suck your own dick- jack, I don't owe you anything. Sometimes you make me wonder why the fuck you're so thick. No one told you to be nice, ain't mean you gotta be a prick. And it's true we mimic you behind you, all the gay shit that you do. You ain't looking surprised now that I told you guess your momma did too. I'm not apologizing rhyme for all the shit you put me through. Feel free, hire a lawyer, sue me if you got to. You said you loved me, I believed it for a second but we both know it ain't true. I'm done with all the boohoos, done with this catastrophe. You served me poisoned honey thank fuck I have the remedy. Laugh at me all you want, we'll see who gets faster to the top. Maybe you have the edge now but it bout to be a scary drop. When you be driving Honda, bitch I be rolling Maserati. You're cycling shit I'm parking my Annaliese to the boat q...

How bout a round of applause and a standing ovation. Boy you've really been amazing. The choice of words and tactics you were using deserves solid praising. Fooled me. In my weakest moments I failed to see, all your plan As and plan Bs.  Now you want a half assed relationship, nah sorry honey. I don't have time to meddle in child's play. Such a typical teen romance story, hot headed and risque. You say you've more experience with love but of what quality are they? One night stands, sex buddies. What's it adequate to? You told me you changed, I stayed the same, naive- forgetting old habits die hard it's true.  I'm about done with your yabadeesyabadoos. I'll only have you if you're sweeter than my solitude. So if this is your best then you're best really won't do. *Songspiration: Inspired by Rihanna's - Take a bow 

Here we go again- Another heartbreak. How much longer can I fake that I'm okay, that I have hope in something that just plays my emotions and sways my mood to painful extremities. Stop giving me cupid's potion it's poison. Pointless. I'm all about holding faith, But enough is enough I'm so done with it. 'Babe you're so pretty.' But pretty don't do shit. They say the world's real small, the world's the way you perceive it, So I decided to perceive my world with you. But they never told me what perceptions do. Perception makes you a fool, you see things in pink when they're in reality blue. You held me with affection and sincerity, Then you left and let things be, where's the clarity. Finally I find a keeper but he doesn't keep me.